Tears

This morning I woke from a strange dream. The dream itself is irrevelant but in it were friends from California. After waking up my thoughts drifted back to when I was there and, as thoughts often do unless checked, I remembered the struggles. I remembered the emptiness, the loneliness, the depression, and the searching for something deeper. None of my thoughts were specific memories of events because that was my experience. There were punctuated times of happiness and there could have been more had I cultivated the friendships that God had blessed me with. That is besides the point. As I lay there I remember that God answered my prayers in such specific ways and even though I was so far from Him He was calling me back to Him by showing me he cared enough to answer my prayers. Tears began rolling down my cheeks as I saw the goodness of the Lord. Praises filled my heart. He truly is a God of mercy filled with lovingkindness and compassion. How can my lips stay silent when the goodness of the Lord is before me?