A Summer in Reflection Part 5

My heart was filled with disappointment, jealousy, and selfishness. I wasn't quite ready to give these feelings to God. I reviewed them and analyzed them and clung to them. I didn't want to admit that God had a different plan for me than I had. I almost started to cry at the first door because I didn't want to be there. Not a single book went out for the first thirty minutes because self was getting in the way.

Finally it was too much for me. I found a quite spot away from the road and I knelt down and surrendered everything to God. I admitted that I was being selfish and that God had a plan for me that I couldn't see. When we truly give self to God He is free to bless us. Not that He doesn't bless us before but He can bless us more abundantly. That day God had a bigger plan than I could ever imagine.

God decided to bless me in crazy experiences.


At one house I ended up chasing a woman's dog down the street because I accidentally let him out when I went outside to get more books. The woman read in Spanish more so when she invited me inside I brought only my Spanish books. She told me that she would send quotes to a young man in prison. The young man read only in English. When I went to get my English books I didn't quite latch the door and the dog escaped.


When we finally got the dog back inside I was able to show the lady two books in English. She ended up getting four books, two in Spanish for herself and two in English for the young man in prison. 

At another house the lady who answered only spoke Spanish. She wanted one book in particular but every book I showed her wasn't the book. She called her mother and the book was The Great Controversy in Spanish. Unfortunately we had completely run out of the Spanish GCs. She called her sister to come translate because it was difficult to communicate.


Her sister ended up getting The Final Events DVD from Amazing Facts. The lady who had answered the door ended up ordering The Great Controversy and they directed me to their other sister. The other sister's house had already been canvassed the previous day but the daughter had answered the door and said that she wasn't interested. During lunch I went to the third sister's house and she ended up getting books.


It was a crazy day and God had bigger plans than I had for myself. If I had held onto my selfishness and pride I don't think that God would have been able to use me like He had after I surrendered completely to His will.